UP Med here i come! ^^;

greatgreatgreat! 2 years (yeah, 3rd year and 4th year lang ako nagtino) of working my ass off has paid off :)and no need to pay 25K for UST's confirmation fee either! yun un eh!

thank you Jess for all the blessings!
wooohooo! :)

happy new year! ^^;

kamusta naman with the super late update of this lj :)

i'm currently thesis-ing ^^; finally the fishes have laid their eggs! kainis lang kasi they keep on dying. raar!

pretty accessories for cheap. leave a message here if you're interested. :)

or email me at trish16@gmail.com

i hate that i'm starting to care.
and that i'm getting a little bit attached.
that i'm starting to look forward to morning greetings and good night's.
that this is one big "tanga moment"
that this is something extremely useless.
that i'll probably wake up tomorrow and realize that i did something wrong.
that i'll end up hurting some person.

WUH.

boys are evil! throw rocks at them!

*argh, i hate you. you know know who you are. and i can't blame you really... pero sh*t, evil ka pa rin. i trusted na you'd be nice and you'd take care of a friend, but apparently you're just like every other guy out there. evil!*

i haven't updated this thing.

nothing to say anyway.

instructions:

1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different descriptions of their perfect lover.

2. He/she needs to mention the sex/gender of their perfect lover.

3. He/she must tag 8 more people to join this game and leave a comment on their respective sites anouncing that they've been tagged.

4. If tagged a second time, there's no need to post again.

Gender: I am obviously straight. So I’d really love to have a boy for a lover.

Descriptions:
1. Decent Looking. I’m not fan of the punk, emo, or hiphop fashion. So I prefer pretty boys who wear normal “boy clothes” if such thing exists.

2. Smart. Nah, he doesn’t have to be a double Summa Cum Laude degree holder or whatever, but he can’t be stupid!

3. Understanding. I’m a very busy person and I need someone who’ll understand that I can’t be there 24/7.

4. Sweet. “especially when he's a bit uncomfortable and you can sense it” <-- I agree abby. It’s cute when you sense that they wanna be sweet but they’re a bit hesitant. I like sweet hugs.

5. Funny. He has to be able to make me laugh, okay fine… at least make me smile.

6. Someone who has a “future”. I just want someone who has his own dreams to fulfill. I don’t like a person who’s just relying on his “mana” or family business.

7. Committed. I know, coming from someone who refuses to commit to anyone, this sounds weird.

8. Someone who’s not so into me. I mean, he has to really like me. I don’t like pushovers though. I want a bit of mystery and challenge.

tags: aids, bojit, 3sa, robin, ate thea, mariel, jen, and anyone (can't think of anyone right now)

im keepin my affair in a book
so this is how a villain feels
theyre running seasons in my chest
and im only to keep them

Chorus:
maybe its not true
love on the tv
just like we imagine it
and its so hard to do
when theres always some distraction
a shiny red balloon
that spoils everything

im keepin my affair in a book
such practical and harmless vice
but im feelin it could end up painfully
and the tv should apologize

im keepin my affair in a book
my long and lonely compromise
how can you live like that my dear
well we do

it spoils everything

i got this from candymag. lol, i believe that this "conversation" never took place.

if ever it took place naman, hay... i'd love to meet the people involved in it. ^_^
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*gabe. usapang lalake*
*sindi ng yosi*
*hithit*
*buga*
Musta na, pare? Ako, okay lang. Eto. Nagmumuni-muni.
Nag-iisip. Minsan talaga may mga bagay na hindi ko
maintindihan. Ewan ko ba.

*hinga ng malalim*

Bakit ba ganun pare, ilang beses ko na pinag-aralan
pero lagi na lang lumalabas na parang kahit sang
anggulo mo tingnan, hindi nagiging patas para sa mga
lalake ang ilang bagay pagdating sa pagmamahal.

*tingin sa stars*

Minsan naiisip ko, alam kaya ng mga babae ang hirap ng
lalake na gumawa ng first move para magtapat ng
pagmamahal? E yung hirap na dinadaanan sa panliligaw
at pagsuyo sa mahal nya? Ang feeling ng masaktan pag
nabasted? Malamang-lamang siguro, hindi ano. Wala
naman yata silang alam sa mga paghihirap naten e. Ang
alam lang ata nila e mamili, manakit, at magsaya.
Tingin mo?

*tingin sa malayo*

Lagi naman ganun. Una pa lang, lalake na ang
naghihirap. Hassle saten ang panliligaw pero bago pa
yun, kung ano pang diskarte ang gagawin naten para
masabi naten sa kanila na mahal natin sila. Alam kaya
nila yun? Mahirap magsabi na mahal mo na yung babae,
diba? Tapos liligawan pa naten. Patutunayan na mahal
nga sila. Susuyuin to-the-max. Maghahatid sa bahay,
tutulungan, sasabayan, palalamunin, pagtyatyagaan,
lahat na. Kulang na lang e pagsilbihan mo nang walang
sahod. At ano ang kapalit? Well, depende sa trip nila.
Oo tol, sa trip lang nila. Wala silang pake kesehodang
mahal natin talaga sila. Basta ang alam nila, pag di
nila tayo trip, isang malaking HINDE ang makukuha
naten, kahit umiyak pa tayo ng dugo o lumuhod sa mga
asing buu-buo. Para lang silang namimili ng damit na
di man lang sinusukat bago ayawan. Kaya kahit mahal na
mahal na mahal na mahal natin, sorry tayo. Hindi nila
alam kung mahal mo sila. Kailangan mong maabot ang
kanilang mga standards o uuwi ka lang na bad trip,
iiling-iling, at minsan, luhaan.

Wala tayong magagawa, marami silang alibi. Hindi pa ko ready eh.. ,
Sorry
pero I think we should just be
friends.. , Ha? Uhhmm.. nagpapatawa ka ba?
Hahahaha.. Better luck next time na lang muna, okay
lang? , Give me a decade. Pag-iisipan ko muna.. , Para lang kitang
kapatid
e..
, yaddah yaddah. Isang
malaking pagsasaklob ng langit at lupa yon para
saten.

*kuha ng bote ng beer*
*lagok*
*lunok*

At hindi lang yon tol. Sa pre-relationship stage pa
lang yon. Pag sinagot na nila tayo, satin pa rin ang
hassle. Tayo daw ang mga lalake kaya tayo ang hahawak
ng relasyon. Tayo ang aayos kung may gulo; tayo ang
dapat magpapakabait; tayo ang magtatyaga; tayo ang
magiging devoted at faithful; tayo, tayo tayo.

Sila? Ummm Teka, isipin ko.

Ayun. Sila ang magsasabi kung anong oras kayo dapat
magmeet; sila ang magtetext ng mga mushy at
kabalbalang texts; sila ang magdedemand sayo ng kung
anu-ano; sila ang magbabawal; sila ang magsasabi kung
kelan ka dapat mag-shave, kung kelan ka pwedeng
tumawag sa bahay nila, kung kelan sila di dapat bad
tripin dahil meron sila, at kung kelan ka korni. Ewan.
Ganun ata talaga.

*kuha ng bote ng beer*
*lagok*
*lunok*

Hindi pa yun tapos pare, dahil dapat tayo ang bahala
kung ano ang magiging takbo ng relasyon. Pag maganda,
edi okay. Pag may problema, kasalanan naten. Haay
buhay. Minsan talaga kung tutuusin sakit sila ng ulo.
Kaya lang mahal naten kaya di na natin iniintindi yun.


*hinga ng malalim*

Pero alam mo tol, feeling ko mas sincere pa tayo
magmahal sa kanila. Alam mo yun, iba tayo magmahal e.
Hindi lang parang laru-laro lang. Seryoso. At kung
magmahal man tayo, lubus-lubusan. Mas mature. Hindi
yung parang pambata lang gaya nila na kesyo
magseselos-selos, iiyak-iyak, iina-inarte, dadradrama,
at kung anu-ano pa. Hindi lang kababawan. Ka-mushyhan.
Kababaihan. Iba tayo pag nagmahal.

*hinga ng malalim*
*tingin sa malayo ulit*

At ito pa ang pinakamasaklap.

*singhot*

Ang ending ng relasyon. Sa mga panahong to, either
sawa na sila, hindi na tayo trip, may nahanap na
silang better saten, o kaya they need f*cking space
and time muna. Bad trip no? Wala na naman tayong
choice. Sila ang masusunod.

At ano pa ang kasamang hassle don? Syempre wasak na
ang imahe naten. Tayo ang lalabas na may kasalanan. Na
playboy. Na nagpapaiyak.

*iiling*

Tayo siyempre ang mga antagonist at sila yung mga
bidang inaapi at parang mga pusang iiyak-iyak. Ang
ending: mag-ooffer sila ng friendship kuno matapos
tayong pagsawaan, lahat ng gifts naten nasa kanila,
sawi tayo sa pag-ibig, player na ang image naten, at
higit sa lahat, mag-iisip kung papaano ipagpapatuloy
ang buhay. Maiiwan tayong tulala, mag-iisip kung saan
nagkamali, mamomroblema sa pag-aadjust sa pagiging
single, at di na naman makakatulog.

Haay buhay. Ang hirap maging lalake. Lagi ka na lang
naiiwan sa ere. Ano? Hindi ka na nagsalita? In-love ka
no?

Ako, kamusta? Eto. Yoyosi-yosi. Bubuntong-buntong
hininga. Titingin-tingin sa bituin. Mumuni-muni.
Lalagok-lagok ng alak.

Ang mga babae talaga, oo.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

- from "the sandman" by neil gaiman

I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you

Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing

So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out

The way I see it, I got three choices. One, I can shoot him. Two, I can kick the crap out of him. Or three, I leave you. Well, all that's no good. You see, 'cause none of those options get me you


Summer romances end for all kinds of reasons. But when all is said and done, they have one thing in common: They are shooting stars-a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, a fleeting glimpse of eternity. And in a flash, they're gone

i just got home from glorietta. ^_^

i went out with the my 3 best girls! haha

i missed them sobra, i can't believe 7 hours went by so fast.

to more shoppings sprees, cpk moments, timezone, videoke, camwhoring, and seattle's best tambay times! ^_^

*hugs*
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school starts tomorrow! ayos!

yesterday, i was trying to be such a good daughter. i watched "all about love" with my mom. harhar.

the whole time i was ranting to juf and kamsy that my brain was litteraly going down the drain with the movie. ugh. wuh. wtf, cheezy lines all over huh?

it was a bad movie. wuh, i've seen a lot of tagalog love movies and sooo far this is the worst. haha.

but in fairness, i had a few good laughs over the "badz-wes" story. i could relate to badz's character kasi. i'm cynical about love, emotions and professions of love from people. i'm like "wtf? get lost. find someone else and stop bugging me". lol.

watever!
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i think i've finally fixed the mess? how? just like in debates, i dismissed the issue. ^_^ i know it'll come up again sometime soon, but until it does i don't have to worry about it.

last night, i did something really stupid.

i was tired and sleepy, and i just did something stupid. i acted like i was drugged and intoxicated, and i didn't even think about my actions. tsktsktsk.

so i'm in a mess right now? definitely, and i do have to fix it soon... the message was a "joke", i didn't think it would be taken seriously.
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In the 8th grade my English class had to read Romeo & Juliet. Then for extra credit, Mrs. Snyder made us act out all the parts.
Sal Scalperillo was Romeo. As fate would have it, I was Juliet.
All the other girls were jealous but I had a slightly different take. I told Mrs. Snyder that Juliet was an idiot.
For starters she falls for the one guy she knows she can’t have. Then she blames fate for her own bad decision.
Mrs. Snyder explained to me that when fate comes into play, choice sometimes goes out the window.
At the ripe old age of 13, I was very clear. That love like life is about making choices.
And fate has nothing to do with it.
Everything it’s so romantic. Romeo & Juliet. True love. How sad.
If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy, drink a bottle of poison and go to sleep in a mausoleum…she deserved whatever she got.
Maybe Romeo & Juliet were fated to be together but just for a while. And then their time passed.
If they could’ve known that beforehand maybe it would’ve all been okay.
I told Mrs. Snyder that when I was growing up I’d take fate into my own hands.
I wouldn’t let some guy drag me down.
Mrs. Snyder said that I’d be lucky if I found that kind of passion with someone. And that if I did, we’d be together forever.
Even now I believe for the most part love is about choices.
It’s about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending … most of the time.
And that sometimes despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate wins anyway.

- Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy

have you ever wanted something so bad?
and then just when you have it within your grasp you realize that you don't want it as bad?
you don't really want to give it away though, and you don't want to lose it either?

selfish? tell me about it.

i don't even know if it's because i'm selfish or it's just that i'm scared.

ugh.
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"it's your own fault, I never wished you any sort of harm; but you wanted me to tame you... "

i hate to think that all my current experiences will someday become stories with no point
- calvin, calvin and hobbes

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i uploaded some of the palawan pics. ^_^ here...

http://trish16.multiply.com/photos/album/7

i refuse to be tamed. :(

- the little princess (lol, that's me)
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i'm looking forward to a new school year!

i want to be busy again. stress makes me a better person. i'm looking forward to studying like sh*t, and researching till all hell breaks loose! i'm looking forward to bio org activities and tutorials. i'm looking forward to a fun and busy year! ^_^
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i can't help but feel a little disappointed with myself lately. geez, i guess you can't have it all right? i've been so blessed in every aspect of my life, i really should just be thankful. ^_^

just got home from the elimination rounds of the AUDC. we didn't break, but it was a great tourney! lovelovelove foreign schools! ^_^
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bojit: thanks for being our host. ^_^ dapat mag-finals kayo!
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i <3 breaknight! it's the perfect time to unwind and get a little "tipsy" (yeah). i lovelovelove hanging out and playing games with the whole UPM contingent. ^_^ nasty secrets being revealed, and some people getting intoxicated (not me though).
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we saw each other yesterday. it felt okay, a little awkward at first (since we last saw each other in 2004) but eventually we seemed to pick up from where we left off. i'm relatively happy, but in a way i feel guilty because of my answers during the "truth or dare" game. :'c

i just got back from palawan. *heaven*

i loved the island hoping tour. imagine having one whole island to yourself! ^_^ i even had to trek 5 hours back and forth to the underground cave since there were no boats that were travelling (since the currents were extremely "great"). but, it was worth it. i'll upload pics after audc.
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a week ago i realized i was stuck in time. now, i'm back in september 2004. and it feels... "nice/fun". it's time to be "reckless but not stupid" (once again) as yves would put it ^_^

happy mother's day to all the mothers out there! ^_^
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game 3 of the spurs vs mavericks series was one of the fun-est games i've seen in a long time.

it was neck-to-neck for most of the time... i kept on holding my breath and shouting (to the point that mom had to scold me for making soooo much noise daw)

in the end, the mavericks won. (mavs lead the series 2-1) i'm a spurs fan, but the mavs have my respect... they're really a good and solid team! i'm starting to like dirk. ^_^
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i'll be leaving tomorrow (but i haven't packed yet!), so i won't be able to watch nba (damn!) and update this thing. someone text me whoever wins sa clippers-suns. ^_^